Stay Strong

Been away for too long. Nothing much except work work work.Watching Korean drama,"Uncontrollably fond" and din know Kim Woo Bin has such charm on him that attract my attention. Was impressed with "W" drama storyline but I still prefer a melodrama. After a long consideration, I decided to go Hong Kong end of the year to see the land of TVB dramas. My Korea dream is still a long way. Shoulders felt heavy nowadays as the installment for Ultrapolis is increasing rapidly. My health has been deteriorating lately but I keep it away from my mum so that she wont worry too much. Occasionally, I will destress myself by online shopping. Life has been ok so far. My facebook is full of frens expecting showing their belly , or newborn babies. I have decided to filter this out from my newsfeed.It is not their fault, I know but it is just too much for me. I need to continue life. Sometimes , looking at my hubby is a pain. Occasionally, I cried at night.As human, we do feel sad but I believe as time comes, it will heal. The pain will go away and the thought will go away once we get used to it.

Penang trip(30 April till 2 May 2016)

Just back from Penang during the labour day hols. Finally went to St Anne church. Did my prayer to the god and we went straight to Island after lunch at BM. Went to Georgetown and with the help of Waze, we manage to find our hotel without any difficulty. Satisfied with the room and off we went to grab some snacks from the hawker stalls few shop away. It was very convenient, the only catch is the parking space very limited. Was tired so we nap about one hour inside the room.At 6 oclock, we started our journey to Kimberly Street. Why not going to Gurney Drive? We have been there many times thus we thought we want to have a change and hangout at the town. Food was not as much as Gurney but we tried all the recommended food there. Emperor chicken feet, the gingko soup with "yau cha kuai". After a satifying dinner, we went to Prangin Mall to do some light shopping. Nothing much, just bought some shoes there. As we were tired as travel all the way from KL, we went to bed quite early at 1130pm. The next day, it was time to go for Air Itam laksa. Kek Lok Si. This is a must visit place in Penang. Up we went, with the normal routine, grab some vege for the tortoise there and off up we went to do our prayers. My Muar Chi stall is at its usual spot,thus we grab two boxes of it from the uncle. It was labour day and sale must be everywhere. It was such a hot weather thus we decided to go to Queensbay Mall. Spending few hours there with joining the crowd at Padini,we went to Armenian street to enjoy the murals and photograph session.This time, I manage to get myself a bicycle to ride.Bought some handmade souveniers and  off we went to Macalister road to try the hawker food there. I saw an uncle selling durians and was very tempted but manage to control myself. I think this year, I need to have self control against this giant king of fruits.We order oysters and enjoy ourselves with our sweat running all over our face. Decided to go 1 st avenue to enjoy the cold air cond environment there. The next morning, we went to this super old shop Kedai Kopi Kong Thai Lai. The nasi lemak is cheap and taste fantastic. You know what is most popular at Penang? Yes, the cendol. We went to Penang road and q up for the cendol. My mum hate that environment as the weather was super hot. Just like a small kid, she throw tantrums and shouting and yelling at me when I told her I am going to Gurney Plaza to meet up with a fren. She was pestering me to go back to Ipoh also. I love my mum but sometimes her tantrums is not easy to handle. This is where my younger sis crazy genes who like to menggila comes from. I told myself to be patient and I cancel my meetup with fren. I notice it is not easy to go hols with my mum and younger sis , no wonder my elder sis never bring my mum/younger sis to hols anymore. She just go with her family.So far, no plans to go anywhere this year. Been saving money very hard. Liabilities too much and causing I cant afford a new car. My Korea trip need to be postphoned to next year again.

                                                    St Anne church at Bukit Mertajam

                                                    The half boiled egg from Kong Thai Lai

                                             Char Keuy Teow near Eton hotel (rm9.50) one plate

                                                 My purple bicycle at Armenian Street

CNY 2016

The cashew nut cookies that I made

Beloved mummy birthday with her grand kids,dughters and son in law. Wish mum have good health always

New clay tea set which I got it for myself this CNY to serve guest

Chor 2 Dinner at Restaurant Loong Wah

So fast CNY already over. Well, this year, it was a very tiring CNY. The difference this CNY with the previous ones , I start my bussiness with selling "HAI LOU" . RM10 one small tong. Its actually very cheap and not much profit earned. Cant sell too expensive or else, no one buy from me. Must gain the trust from customers first. Well, for a start, not bad the bussiness. Collect orders of 14 tong and then I "sau gong". Due to the price of everything raise up this year, I made cashew nut biscuits too to save some cost on buying the biscuit for CNY. Every ringgit counts. This year, it is my turn to sponsor the Chor 2 dinner. Decided to eat at Restaurant Loong Wah as the price is reasonable. Want to book Restaurant Tuck Kee but the captain was very rude to me when I was asking them on the menu. The price was expensive and not worth it also plus with the rude attitude, no way I going to let them earn my money. Overall, satisfied with Loong Wah as this restaurant belongs to my relative. Manage to spend some time to gather with my frens. We manage to maintain this gathering since year 2003 till now. More than ten years of friendship.Although all of us are busy with our life, but each time CNY, it is time for gathering. I thank god for giving me a group of true frens.The best part is a friend of mine turned into gay. Perhaps he was gay all along but it has been announced to all since two years ago. To me, nothing changed. Gay or no gay, he is still a good friend of mine. However, each time CNY gathering, I still will think of  a fren of ours that has went missing/lost in touch. We mention about him few times but as time passed by, his name was never mention again. I know frens come and go but I still hope this fren of mine, by fate, I can see him again. 12 years has passed, no news was heard about him.Money was spend for CNY, with the number of angpau that I need to give, its very tiring. Married for almost 5 years and still no luck in having a baby. No matter how much I comfort myself, its not working. This issue is slowly eating my spirit up. I hold on to the hope, but each day , my health getting worse and worse. Next month, I decided to resume back my dance class. One year...I stopped ever since I discover I am preggie. The nightmare last year, it was still very fresh on my mind . On how hopes was given and was taken back in a harsh way. I no longer crying but my heart still hurts each time I think of what happen. Deep inside, I know, it takes a miracle to be able to conceive again. Perhaps I need to be less greedy and pray for good health. Be thankful. What others able to do naturally, I need a miracle for it. Perhaps my upcoming hols to Bangkok can help to ease my stressful mind. Cant wait to go BKK!