Tuesday, March 10, 2009

its all coming back to me now

ell, i finally finish tidying up my room now.....not the one at home but the one at shah alam. the room has been messy since last year
and this weekend only i manage to find the time to tidy it up. Well, the great news is that I finally fully recover from
some sickness which some of my frens might know about and i think even my colleagues notice it too as I went to see doctors more than once
during lunch time for the past two months. Yes, for the past two months, my health has been deteriorating a lot with fever,cough,flu and many other things.
Well, it could be probably someone cursing me.....well,i was really scared that i might die as if my condition become worse,i might
need to go for scan,ultrasound and etc. In summary, i am ok after my mum spend some money at Eu Yen Sang and I am alright now. Hehe.
There are still many things I want to do.
Been thinking a lot lately.I have a strange and funny dream lately and it was so funny that I ended up laughing when I woke up.
Well, I have been working for around 9 months now that I start to miss uni life.I miss my MMU frens though I do have a hard time
to adapt to the environment.Well, there are a few memories that still very fresh on my mind. The reason is that I sort of experiencing the same
situition now . That is I am all alone but dun get me wrong, I still have lots of frens here, just that I feel a bit lonely. I still
remember during my first year in MMU, i met few frens which I can really get along with. Was really sad when most of them went cyber during the beta year. Anyway,
during my beta year, I was really happy as there is someone(I not going to mention name here) that is always around me.We did a lot of things together from
eating lunch,dinner,supper together. My heart sort of broken when this person left MelSsaka.During my beta year also, I
have a very nice coursemate from my hometown that is always there whenever I need someone to talk to or help me with assignment.I still remember in year 2006(world cup),
"you" came all the way to visit me in Melaka.There are so many things that cant even describe in words but I finally manager to forget about "you"
during my first sem in my final year.For final year, was busy with fyp plus i think the most remarkable event is prom.It is an event
where everyone will dress in their best together with their partner.Although i Was tired by trying to finish up my fyp report, I was really happy that night.After that,
with final exam(the very final one in MMU), everyone went to their own path.My path was into the telecommunication industry
which I never regret because I have learn a lot and I am still in the process of learning. I was amazed with the technicalknowledge my seniors had and I wish
someday, I can reached the level where i know in detail all about telecommunications.My tehcnical knowledge now is only 5% and I hope to gain more.Some of my coursemates
venture into electronics industry. Well, everyone got their own dreams and some even took the road less travelled by. Whatever it is , to me, everyone got their own potential.
Well, my memories not only limited to my uni life but also my school life.Unfortunely, those sad memories I had in school
came back to me yesterday.I do happy happy memories too but those sad memories still haunt me. I think I have let go one year ago but I was so wrong.Hmmm...
how long already those sad memories happen?Time pass really fast.I was in form 4 that time, that makes it 8 years ago.8 years have pass
but I still remember very clearly those people that give me a hard time(some even migrated to US)
Every single detail still very fresh on my mind.
I know I should have just let it go but it is so hard.Sometimes i think god is helping me,u know why? Because the devil that is hidden inside me wants me to get revenge
on those people that have bully me , those that have mentally torture me and not even once, i bump to them after I finish my form 5. Aiks....I feel a bit tired already
.There are so many things I want to write down but unfortunely,time doesnt allow me.niTEZ!