Here's a story of a girl,
 Living in the lonely world,
 A hidden note, A secret crush,
 A little boy who talks too much.

Well, I'm standing in the crowd,
 And when you smile I check you out,
 But you don't even know my name,
 You're too busy playing games,

And I want you too know,
 If you lose your way,
 I won't let you go.

If I cut my hair,
 If I change my clothes,
 Will you notice me?

If I bite my lip,
 If I say hello,
 Will you notice me?


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Wednesday, June 17, 2009
10:37 AM



Will you ever notice me...

10:29 AM

Me and my mummy
Me and daddy

Will you ever notice me...

Sunday, June 14, 2009
9:49 PM

Well, unlucky for me and being careless,less than a week driving my new car, i was involve in accident.so many unfortunate things happen.luckily, my relative help me by borrowing his car to me to go to work while my car remain in the workshop for few days. haih, life was like hell, i keep blaming myself, my beloved parents din scold me causing me to feel extremely guilty. I have no idea how much I have cried that week.I know some of you might say I am childish but I cant hold back my tears. On sunday night, i keep recalling the accident.On Monday, I was like zombie, luckily I got training that day.Anyway,thank god everything is ok now but my budget for this months has become extremely tight. Well, there are so many things happen,I not going to mention it here but seriously, I felt really hurt. Hurt by someone who hardly cares for me,someone will only come to me when he needs help. Yes, right now, I can even tell I have confused my feelings with the truth. The truth is this person never care for me, each time, I was overshadow by my own feelings,telling myself that he is a good person.I runaway from the truth each time from the day his birthday till my colleague's wedding dinner.Yup, right now, I am awake from my fantasy of me and him together. I told myself, ever since august 2007, i wont allow anyone hurt my feelings anymore....I really feel myself stupid,so easily fall for someone, I wont ...never ...its time to woke up from those silly fantasy.Well, ever since I bought my new car, things do change. I can no longer afford going lunch with my colleagues(planners) anymore as each meal with them is now out of my budget. Last time, it is different. Well, I cant deny i feel sad when I was left out but it is ok when I think of it.I can save a lot of money a month. Either you sacrifice your social life, or car. I have choose my car(my darling) and I can have those kind of social life with those planners. Besides that, I doesnt belong to the group as I am just a "nobody" in the eyes of the planners. It is ok, as when I think back, if I choose to belong to this people, money not enough, who will pity me?Do you think this people will help me when I face financial problem? Yes, JO,please wake up, no point so stand on your two own feet and be independent. I cant have everything in life. I start to count my blessings, new car, my house is very new, a very beautiful room with my own bathroom,a job and a family that cares me a lot. I am very fortunate compare to other people. My colleague said "I live in my own world"(due to I put on my earphones all the time). I dont see anything wrong, most importantly, it doesnt affect my performance. My social life in work might be less but at least I in good terms with everyone, I do not need to stick with one group all the time. Most importantly, I am happy,that is all matters,right? I kind of miss my daddy and mummy,taking one day leave to visit them this weekend.Cant wait to spend time with my family,nothings matters anymore than my family....

Will you ever notice me...

Tuesday, May 26, 2009
1:33 PM

Yes, i finally drove back my new car here.Really happy. Been decorating it last weekend. I will upload photos of it soon. Kind of lazy to write here as I been really busy. Work load is heavy but I will try my best to cope up with it. My performance evaluation has been done by my manager and it is good. My rating is ok. Although I still not that happy on my job position now, but I just have to accept it happily. FYI, I have been trying really hard on that, making myself happy. Well, I would like to thank my exschoolmate for being there to listen, I know i kind of annoying . Thanks for understanding, Thanks for telling me what is on your mind, thanks for being a true fren,thanks for everything, MK. Unlike others, listen to my complaint and nagging, and cursing me behind my back. Well, what I want to say, if I call and sms you, that means I really need someone and I not doing it just for fun. Those who cant understand the situition or the challenges I face,dun worry, though I am a bit slow in digging people's mind out, when I realised, I wont disturb or in simple words, I totally ignore this kind of fren.It is enough to have one good fren,rather than hundred and millions of fake frens. Currently, I kind of happy. I spend time with my niece, do not have financial problem, I got enough space for myself to breathe at work, I no longer need to face the people I dislike.Yes, I am happy.

Will you ever notice me...

Friday, April 24, 2009
11:15 AM

Din update for one month. Cant believe how time flies. A lot has been happening till I cant remember much as memory not good. Well,
fyi, I have bought a new camera,yes, after 5 years, i finally can afford to buy a new camera but unfortunely,till now,I
havent really use it yet.Yup, 12 megapixel, it has ....Amazing,right?I took few pics but will upload soon.Stay tuned!I had a wonderful dinner
with a good fren during his birthday and watched "race to witch mountain".It was a wonderful evening,chatting and laughing.
Indeed,i feel happy that you are around.I love to see you smiling and joke around. It is indeed enough to have you around...in mandarin,
"chu kao" .Oh yea, another significant day is when my ipoh fren ,Joanne came down to visit me.It feels so nice to see your exschoolmates and hanging
around together gossiping , updating each other on our latest news , so relaxing after a stressful week of work.
Words cant express how happy I was on that Sat.Well, life has ups and downs.Well, I got skin allergic last week. I so scared
to look at myself when those stupid red spots on my body.I have to take medicine and cant even eat my favourite beef
or prawns.Once eat,those rashes will come out and worse still,my face also got,causing me to feel not
comfortable.It is suppose to be a wonderful weekend, spending time with my beloved mum who came all the way to Shah Alam to visit me.
Besides my skin allergic,I had a nice weekend with my mum.i took her to Dino Plaza and she was amazed with the method to eat the food and we
went Sushi Zanmai in One Utama.I had to be careful with the food I eat though.We chat alot. Well, my mum said
I have change a lot due to my working environment ,causing me not to be as cheerful like last time. I told her"no, I am fine" but tears
start to flow down my cheeks.I cant tell her what I have been through ,the sadness that is inside me as I dont want her to worry.
Well,there is one touching scene last Sunday where I went to toilet in One U, there was a korean fair , I was busy looking for my mum,at last Ifound her
U know what I saw? I saw my mum Q up in the counter.It was a long Q.Before that, there is this promoter came to us promoting some kind of drink which cost RM35 a bottle
I told my mum I dun want as it is so expensive. Well,my mum was Q up to buy two bottles for me.I knew how she hate to Q up BUT because
of her love towards me and also due to my health not good, she willing to take out the money. I was really touched.
Yes, indeed in this world, your parents love u the most .Well, I told myself , I shouldnt dissapoint my parents and love,appreciate them as much as I can
as life is short.Recently,I notice I have fallen in love with someone and want to tell him how i feel but this person only
cares for himself.He even put priority to his buddies and frens above me.I do not know what he thinks about me but to me,he is important at least thats how
I felt few weeks ago. Right now, i decided to bury this feeling of mine towards him because what I saw, he never care about me, he is the same with
others, just want to tease me,bully me, and instead of helping and cheering me up, all he does is hurt my feelings. Although to him, it is just joking but he has no
idea how much he has hurt my feelings. I have always been alone and I am sure I can do it. No point hanging on to someone who dun care for you.No point
being with a fren who only knows how to take advantage or go find you when he/she need you.Yes, i am sick with those people around me(my colleagues included)
who is so damn fake,trying to be nice to you and they are not sincere at all. When I think of it, it really hurts as I really
treat them as my frens.Why? It is a question without answer.

Will you ever notice me...

Tuesday, March 10, 2009
9:11 AM

ell, i finally finish tidying up my room now.....not the one at home but the one at shah alam. the room has been messy since last year
and this weekend only i manage to find the time to tidy it up. Well, the great news is that I finally fully recover from
some sickness which some of my frens might know about and i think even my colleagues notice it too as I went to see doctors more than once
during lunch time for the past two months. Yes, for the past two months, my health has been deteriorating a lot with fever,cough,flu and many other things.
Well, it could be probably someone cursing me.....well,i was really scared that i might die as if my condition become worse,i might
need to go for scan,ultrasound and etc. In summary, i am ok after my mum spend some money at Eu Yen Sang and I am alright now. Hehe.
There are still many things I want to do.
Been thinking a lot lately.I have a strange and funny dream lately and it was so funny that I ended up laughing when I woke up.
Well, I have been working for around 9 months now that I start to miss uni life.I miss my MMU frens though I do have a hard time
to adapt to the environment.Well, there are a few memories that still very fresh on my mind. The reason is that I sort of experiencing the same
situition now . That is I am all alone but dun get me wrong, I still have lots of frens here, just that I feel a bit lonely. I still
remember during my first year in MMU, i met few frens which I can really get along with. Was really sad when most of them went cyber during the beta year. Anyway,
during my beta year, I was really happy as there is someone(I not going to mention name here) that is always around me.We did a lot of things together from
eating lunch,dinner,supper together. My heart sort of broken when this person left MelSsaka.During my beta year also, I
have a very nice coursemate from my hometown that is always there whenever I need someone to talk to or help me with assignment.I still remember in year 2006(world cup),
"you" came all the way to visit me in Melaka.There are so many things that cant even describe in words but I finally manager to forget about "you"
during my first sem in my final year.For final year, was busy with fyp plus i think the most remarkable event is prom.It is an event
where everyone will dress in their best together with their partner.Although i Was tired by trying to finish up my fyp report, I was really happy that night.After that,
with final exam(the very final one in MMU), everyone went to their own path.My path was into the telecommunication industry
which I never regret because I have learn a lot and I am still in the process of learning. I was amazed with the technicalknowledge my seniors had and I wish
someday, I can reached the level where i know in detail all about telecommunications.My tehcnical knowledge now is only 5% and I hope to gain more.Some of my coursemates
venture into electronics industry. Well, everyone got their own dreams and some even took the road less travelled by. Whatever it is , to me, everyone got their own potential.
Well, my memories not only limited to my uni life but also my school life.Unfortunely, those sad memories I had in school
came back to me yesterday.I do happy happy memories too but those sad memories still haunt me. I think I have let go one year ago but I was so wrong.Hmmm...
how long already those sad memories happen?Time pass really fast.I was in form 4 that time, that makes it 8 years ago.8 years have pass
but I still remember very clearly those people that give me a hard time(some even migrated to US)
ESvery single detail still very fresh on my mind.
I know I should have just let it go but it is so hard.Sometimes i think god is helping me,u know why? Because the devil that is hidden inside me wants me to get revenge
on those people that have bully me , those that have mentally torture me and not even once, i bump to them after I finish my form 5. Aiks....I feel a bit tired already
.There are so many things I want to write down but unfortunely,time doesnt allow me.niTEZ!

Will you ever notice me...

Monday, February 16, 2009
5:02 PM

Things are getting a little bit better at work today.V day was ok.Had a great dinner and I watch few good movies and read some books.
I got a wake up call on sunday from a good friend. Had a great chat with this good fren of mine.He told me things will get better and indeed it has.
Thanks!Workload is getting heavier day by day. I have received some news that things should be getting worse for me in terms of my job.Not that happy as my technical knowledge limited
due to doing the same thing everyday I try to look at the positive side.
In the meantime, I will try my best to cope up with the heavy workload.Well, for those of you who are unaware of Digi latest update, we will be launching 3G end of this month.
Yea, we are kind of lagging behind other telco(U Mobile also got 3G).The priority is not the video conferencing, we will focus more on the internet connection.Well, I did went for training from
our vendor (Huawei) but I still hope to improve my technical knowldge on 3G.Wonder I have the chance or not in the future as my future is kind of undecided.
Been really sad since last Thursday.Having trouble in sleeping also.If u are close fren of mine, u probably should know what have happen.
Well, I need some time to recover from the sadness.It is hard to forget someone...I need some time to treat that person as a very normal fren.I dont really know how to face him also. Of course on the
outside, we are fine.Just that inside my heart, it is hard to accept the truth.The last time I try to forgot V, it took me four years....I cant wait to go back Ipoh
Need family by my side so that I wont think so much.As for to this ex friend of mine who sort of declare war on his blog, u free to say whatever you like,u can tell everyone how smart u are compare to me,
or how qualified yourself as tele student, or how much u know about RSS feed...etc.yOU can continue to tell the world how smart u are compare to me.I too tired to explain or fight with u already.Take note, I am not
agreeing with you,just that I wanna put a stop to it.Well,there are somegood news, I will be having another nephew/niece soon this year!...Happie!

Will you ever notice me...

Wednesday, February 11, 2009
10:58 AM

I cant believe someone is still tracking my blog though there is a period of time that I stop blogging due to I do not have Internet access.
Well, this person sort of stabbing my back with sharp knife on his blog. He just want to tell the whole world how bad i am or how ugly i am.
Anyway, I dont care anymore as I have better things to do than feeling sad about this kind of person.If i do that,I just giving a chance for him to say i am pathetic,
Well, the words i use before is kind of harsh but at least I wont condeem people about their appearance.People who thinks highly of themselves on their appearance andlooking down on people who are not
so pretty are just so not worth it.Second thing is sms is actually kind of private and people who review the sms content to the public doesnt know how to respect privacy of others.How would you feel if people review your sms to others?For those who are still in engineering line or telecommunication line,
you should know sms content is private.Those that work wil telco company should know although we do have access to sms content(it can be done) but because of privacy issue, it is translated into machine language.
I not only pointing to the one that disclose my sms to the public using his blog but also to those who love to peek at people'sms by looking at people's phone or any other way without permission,it is unethical. Been really busy with work till I feel extremely tired each time I back from work.Health been deteriorating.Been sick few times for the past few weeks.
Anyway, the only thing that keeps me occupied and happy now is my beloved hamster, Willy.....I will put pics of it soon.

Will you ever notice me...