Graduation

forget the past and strive for future

i have no idea how long i never blog here.almost half a year i guess.as usual,a lot of things has happened. Graduation ceremony was great except for the part rushing here and there.Saw my uni frens once again after so many months. Everyone looks great.There are a lotof updates about myself of course,from the first day i work in digi till now.LOts of events,from team building to digi challenge and then alot of activities.I got to know and get close to a few colleagues.Well, in life,there is not onlyhappiness but sorrow also.Arguments,those stressful moments when i am trying my best to do my job,and many other things.When u stand on your two own feet,there are so much to think about.For the past few months,i have been through a lot.Indeed,there are few happy things such as my fren finally will be working here.It is one of my fren that i cant afford to lose and someone i hope that will stay quite near to me rather than separated by the sea.hehe. Well,I always tell myself to take things easy and dont think too much.People tend to gossip around and I wont bother to explain much also as it will only make things worse.I tend to be forgetful nowadays and sometimes,I always in my own wonderland....This statement was given by oneofmy colleague.Some people might find me a bit rude as when u ask me question,i tend to keepquiet or ignore it.Usually,it is when I am busy or there is something on my mind.I hope I can change my attitude butsomehow my brain sort of stop functioning.Perhaps you will find it confusing what I am saying here but this ignoring attitude ofmine is getting serious.Well, I was too naive sometimes.The world is indeed very cruel till sometimes,I dun know which is my fren and which one is my enemy.Some people even spread rumours which are not true at all and I admit,I got very upset on this.It is indeed silly but I cant help it.I just hope time will heal and solve everything.

graduated!

yup,finally graduated!hope so unless i fail something.hopefully wont.happy i finally finish my study.5 years just like a blink of an eye though i always waiting for the time passed but seriously,i really cant believe 5 years just passed on like that.so many things have happen during my studies in mmu here.happy and sad events.how i struggled to finish my dsp assignment.still remember i woke up and not yet brush teeth already on my pc and do assignment or how i struggle until late night to settle my power system assignment.besides that ,a good fren of mine or someone i once depend on left me and i was all alone again but i finally got over that after one year.there are a few times i stay awake the whole morning watching drama and crying because i was very sad.happy events ,a lot also.for example,going out with frens and getting to know new frens which i enjoy being with.i really going to miss my mmu frens.i have no idea when we will meet again(of course we will meet again during convo)but this is reality where frens come and go but to me,it is ok,as long as we keep in touch,we are frens no matter how far we are.

mystique 2008

yup,went prom mystique on 12 april.was busy with fyp report that time.i remembered i was doing my report till the last minute .at 4 only i went to bathe and changed to my evening gown and went straight d fino.there were so many people there and one thing i hate the most is to wait.my patience is very low one,u see but no choice.around 6 something only finish hair do and make up.the girl who did the make up for me kind of panic also till she dropped the loose powder on the floor.This is my first time wearing fake eye lashes.haha,the feeling is kind of weird plus i wore contact lens also.frankly speaking,after all the waiting ,i really dun have the mood to go prom already.Then cant find parking pula which makes me very stressful till i finally passed my car to my fren.lazy to drive cos tired already plus feel a bit uneasy wearing contacts plus those heavy make up.the night was ok,i saw someone there...someone i never expect to see...but it doesnt matter anymore.this person has nothing to do with me anymore.oh yea,i was very happy nowadays because i found my gang of frens which i thought i lost them as we din keep in touch.well,my good fren,chris has been updating everyone about me,as usual..hhaha....at least,we got keep in touch and i am so glad i found something that i once thought it was all lost.well,i gain something and i lose something but what i lost,i dun have regrets at all plus nothing will change my decision,till the day i died,i will stick to this decision.i do feel sad about it but as time goes,i already can take it.as for my life,i like the things now.i do feel very sad when i think i cant see my mmu frens anymore and especially someone....but it is ok,i told myself.everyone got their own path.maybe fate will bring us together again,right?there is always a time to say goodbye but we never know when we will say hello to each other again.

i wish things will stay the way they are

been busy lately.there are so many things to settle.2 lab reports,fyp,exams...but it is ok,i can still take it.been locking myself up at home for three days but my dramas accompany me most of the time.my head getting heavier day by day.sometimes,i felt really tired and want to give up but i just cant.the road almost coming to an end and my journey of working life will start soon.i do not want to stay in mmu for another year,staying in mlk for other purpose is ok but not studying in mmu.i have been studying for many years and it is really enough for the time being.i din really have a break without worry about my studies for a long time.the break i had after i finish my pmr and spm were one of my best time of my life and i longed for that kind of break.my fyp still not finish done and i am still working in it.hols was great but just a little trouble happen at home.i was sort of stuck between my parents.thank god it was over and everything was back normal.my financial was sort of frozen during the break due to my familys' problem and deep inside,i got a bit panic.my money sort of stuck for the payment of prom.hope everything will be settle soon.there is another reason why i locked myself up at home.i din want to meet anyone because there is something bothering my mind.well "you" did called me few times but i din picked up ur call because i dun know what to say to " you" anymore.i told myself many times that "you" are history already but somehow "you" always appear all of sudden when i feel down.come to think of it,how many people actually understand what i want and what i like?some people just dun get what i want and what is on my mind.for example,my fren here doesnt know what i want.this fren always treat me food(i did the same to return favour,i not the type that just receive) but that is not what i want my fren to do."you" know what i like the most.i like anything related to "stars" and u once give me a star which i treasure a lot.I once had a bunch of frens that know what i like the most.i still remember my 18th birthday when they give me a present i really like.those are the gifts i never forget.i wonder when i will found someone who knows what i want and read my mind.perhaps never...i kind of tired and class soon.sayonara!

cny dinner at pei zing restaurant,malacca

me and fern

from left :my tele coursemate (chiau ee),me,fern,lilian,yin ching,feli,kai xuan

from left:me,fern,lilian,kai xuan and feli~

year 2008

cant believe i actually din blog here for more than 2 months.well,been busy lately and kind of lazy to blog also.well,my training presentation was kind of screwed up.well,do not want to talk about it further as the chapter is closed.fyp,no progress.i need to get my strength back to do my fyp,in the sense of mentality.physically,i have become fatter.good food in ipoh certainly helps me to gain weight.training was sucks but my colleagues were great.well,third sem already starts but until now,i wasnt ready to face the challenges yet.been thinking a lot lately till i do have a lot of white hair.oh yea,i did dye my hair to natural brown.not because wanna become stylish but just to cover up those bloody white hair.my ex colleagues been teasing me a lot about them as i tied up my hair during work time.oh yea,before i forgot ,i have NIECE!yup,u heard me right,i am now officially upgraded to the status "auntie".she is damn adorable except for the crying part.well,"auntie" is kind of lame or "ah yee" thus i prefer her to call me " auntie jo "hehe.she certainly brought a lot of joy to my parents.well,everyone's life has up and downs and i was kind of down past two weeks.i have cried a lot also but i know it doesnt help to solve the problem.was kind of glad it was over.been confused lately also.not sure what i want or which path to take in the future.during training,i have indeed seen a lot.the ugliness of people(not physically but it is their heart).sometimes i wonder am i becoming like those people yet someone told me it is different because i feel bad after i did something wrong and that the difference of me and them.i saw the greed human has,taking advantage and willing to do anything to get what u want and being over ambitious, 'kiasu' people.the working life there is horrible with stabbing back one another.thats reality and i should live with it.haih.i told myself many times to move on without "u" but there is still a light shadow of "u" inside my heart.my mind has take 90% in charge of my decision making already.i told myself it is ok and everything is fated.no point i keep on putting effort to get something i want.what belongs to u will come to u.just want to lead a simple and happy life now!