feeling a bit lost

just realize i have abandon my blog for a long time. more than a month. well, life is like a routine,not much changes from wake up, go work, off work, dinner, watch drama/rest and sleep. I getting sick of this kind of life. Although I am not so sure on the definition of quarter life crisis but I feel there is something wrong with my life. I start to act weird sometimes and I tend to be very forgetful. No, I am not getting lunatic but mind a bit disturbed nowadays. It is very dangerous to drive when your mind is not focus and I do know that but I cant just help it. I keep thinking and thinking. Well, the only place I will admit that I have high dignity is here and only here. i always want "face". It is normal, right? Just like the famous chinese phrase " trees want the skin, human wants face". Kindly translate the phrase into cantonese.If someone never invite me to a certain event, I wont be thick skin to tag along or force that person to invite. To me, it is pointless, u can lied to yourself but the truth hurts more if u think rationally. Wish to write more but time doesnt permit. My lunch time over and loads of work waiting for me.