silent thoughts

yea,after home alone for two days,i suddenly realise being alone is not that bad.you think i am weird,right?well,i dun care anymore what people think of me.it is only me in my own world of happiness.after all this while,i am like an alien in reality.i enjoy being alone in a quiet surrounding.somehow,i dun really like to talk also.dun misunderstood,it is not because of the drama series i watch "silence" but this movie makes me realise what i want to do.sometimes,i wonder what are the things i want to do if i am going to die.death is something most people fear but in my point of view,we dun know what will happen tomorrow.my second thoughts is to withdraw all my money out and spend it on food and other stuff i like.what is the first thing that come across my mind if i will die soon?yea,the first thing came up is my parents and i will do the things i never dare to do/said.For example,telling to that special person how much i love you and i want to hug you forever.And also to my crush as well about how much i hated you for making me suffer and cry at night.haha.sometimes,i think of the past and each time i think about my "po po",it still hurts though four years have passed.if i pass all my exams,i will graduate and how much i wish you were there.no matter what happens,you will always remain in my memories.i finally found back my goals.been lost for the past few days.i really miss home and i want to go home.miss my doggie also.cant sleep well cos think too much but i hope tonight,i will sleep well as i have determination to let go all the troublesome things.good nite!