sad sad....

haih,i have no idea why i feel sad.just dun feel happy.i dun want to lie to myself anymore."you" really broke my heart.your face appear on my mind only and i cant stop thinking about "you".i remember every single thing very clearly."you " were always there when i need "you".i try to delete " you" from my life but it is hard.besides that,i always tot of sk too.i still remember the first time i saw you,you give me a impression that you are a proud person.there were a lot of girl adore you because you are so handsome but a little bit short.but as i get to know you well,you are very nice and not proud at all.i love your big eyes and your smile.i enjoy talking to you.and your hp number almost same as mine.thanks for giving such wonderful memories.in my life,i come across a few good frens and one of them is you (lkm).though now we no longer keep in touch and i have no idea what happen between you ,and ch and yp but i never forget the moments we spend together.your jokes always on my mind.i still remember the day we work together which is on 19 jan 2003.from going to hair saloon with yp ,shopping together in ipoh parade,watch movie in jj ,those memories will remain in my heart forever.another person who came across my life is "you"(dun want to mention name here..hehe)i still remember how i know you.online...yeah...the power of icq that time.we always chat and chat almost about everything.i feel i really know you well though i never meet you before.i like your characteristics.you have your own opinion and never follow with the flow.and one thing that amazed me is you are not two faced.whatever you dun like,you just say it out unlike some people that will treat you nice though they dun like you.i still remember the time you scold me.all my life,no one except my parents scold me in such a way.scold by teachers and etc ,of course gotlah.and you are just so damn honest.i like you for who you are and not what you did.though we are not close,deep inside my heart,you were always a good person.someone who have strong believe in your faith and that is good.i am really tired already...enough for now....

me again.....so messylah my room..haha 

me in my room in melaka...hehe.... 

ooopppsss..upside down..haha...thats my house fridge..new one...courtesy by my daddy...fuiyoh,no more complain from my mummy anymore!best present for the year! 

anger

i never felt so angry in life.....really hate "you".get out of my life.all my life,i never felt this way before.i always get angry with people but this time,it is really different.in other words,i feel really stupid.i always tot i can handle things but this time obviously things went out of control of my hands.feel really hurt and i seriously, need some time to recover.it takes time,i told myself.i realise all this while,i have been lying to myself.i told myself,it is not like that,i refuse to accept the fact,but since last night,i determine to let go and forget about you.i need to go on with my life but you are not visible anymore in my journey.i have learned my lesson in a hard way.along my journey this time,i wont let anyone like" you " to enter my life anymore.really cant take it anymore.i dun want to keep everything in my heart as i will end up depression therefore decided to write it here.do not wish to elaborate on this matter anymore as it is to painful to write it in words.farewell to " you".

chinese new year

happy chinese new year,everyone!wish everyone have a year of happiness and prosperity.new sem have started and i have determinations to do well this sem.really need to improve my cgpa so that i wont feel uncomfortable each time i see my academic advisor.haha...that fella really freaks me out.now eating nestle fitness for lunch..wanna know why?i really need to keep fit already.very fat after chinese new year.there are few events that will happen in my life and i think the most important event of the year is the marriage of my elder sis to mr leong kean heng.i damn surprised when was told the good news.no comment on it as it is her life and i have no right to interfere.she ask me to be her brides maid.dangerous....brides maid are meant to stay as spinster...haha...or the next one to get married...haha..i dun believe such thing lah.the wedding is end of this year which should be in december.the date havent confirm yet.i just cant believe my sis getting married cos in my opinion,it is very early to settle down at her age.my mum really worried i will be "sit jo lah"(spinster).haha...always ask me i got bf or not then bring back homelah....haha....currently,i dun have anyone or any candidate in my mind.i try to enjoy to the fullest without finding trouble.after some bad experience last sem,i really do not find trouble that will distract my studies.about my studies,i did mention here,i failed my analog midterm and luckily i manage to do ok in my final and got a b+ for that subject.i learned my lesson and i wont let anyone distract my mind from my studies.i do not wish to waste people's time also therefore i have speak out my mind to "you"(you know who you are).really sorry if i hurt your feelings but i am sure you understand.just glad to know you and i hope we can be frens.will find you once i back to ipoh.haha....anyway,i receive some bad news yesterday.my sis told me my dad din feel well.i damn scared when she mention my dad feel pain in the heart.my grandpa died of heart attack and this disease is inheritance one.daddy,do not leave cos i cant live without you and mummy(thats what come across my mind).then she told me dad was ok after see doctor(fuiyoh...so glad)aiks...gtg already...got class seeya...

me in my living room 

me and mummy...happy birthday,mummy! 

mummy,me and big sis 

mummy and daddy