refer to title above, thats what i feel about life. currently, i am living in a state of denial. When i feel scared, i keep telling those around me that I am ok.when I found that I miss someone, I told myself that I just being too lonely, when I am worried, I try to comfort myself that things will be better soon. Yes, I found myself a bit pathetic. There are so many things i keep to myself just to make sure the other party doesnt get hurt.Deep inside, I really want to voice everything out but the reality prohibit me from doing that. Ended up, I wrote here. This blog is just a way for me to rant here about everything.Music is my life and so is this blog.I feel tired of mentioning about my work here as it is getting duller and less interesting day by day. I lost my passion in working. The reason I work is because of money and to survive.thats all...
Ok, what I want to mention here is about kids. They are pretty troublesome. Well, lots of people got the concept" i like kids" as most of the kids love me and like me around. Yes, I do like kids for short time. Not long period by taking care of them for more than 1 week.My concept is "dun want to have much kids...most is 2..." That also if I got married only. Dun want to become "yellow lady". Kids are money sucker( like me lah).Leech that never want to leave you.
Oh yea, my dog was pretty sick last week. I seriously thought that he will leave me. It is really sad to see someone/something that you love left you. I felt this kind of pain six years ago and I hate to go through that again. Well, my dog pretty old and it is time to go soon. Took leave and told myself "if got fate, he will wait till i back home". i pray to god too as he is the last person that you can come to when other things doesnt help at all. I thank god for hearing my prayers as my dog was getting well after that.Thank you , for giving me more time with scottie. oOPSS...its getting late. Need to sleep soon as tomorrow will be another busy day!
