Sunday, April 02, 2006

quite some time din update my blog already.this is all because of exams and exams.not only that,i face some health problems.really serious ones,till now it is still bugging me.i dun want to mention about the exact problem but i kind of scared.there are a lot of things i havent do.hopefully everything will be ok and i will recover soon.din tell the full details to my parents cos i dun want them to worry.just told them "i will be ok".been through few papers and for the past few weeks,things are like "hell".i din do well in my control theory,and info theory..the result for info theory out but i havent check yet.hopefully will pass.data com was ok but dun think i will do very well for that also.engineering maths exam coming soon but i havent prepared yet.why?because my body refuse to study.i feel so "tired" though i never do anything.seriously,my health problems is really affecting me.i try to be strong but i just cant do it.deep inside my heart,my fear have conquer my whole body overshadowing my strength to study,my strength to continue life.haih...what am i going to do?i am lost.sometimes,i feel that i dun have anyone here.feel really lonely.no,i am not desperate looking for someone.just that i need some frens that can be trusted and share m problems and be there for me.unfortunely,there is no one here in mlk for me.full of hipokrits.they only come to me when they need me for example,when they want solution for tutorials,assignments,lab report and etc.they wont be close to me also.why?cos i am a so called "alien" or "banana".seriously,i miss my frens.my only trustworthy frens.yp and ch,i miss both of you so much.why both of you away from me?one is in genting and another one in kl.i still remember both of you never neglect me and always there for me when i was in ipoh.very "yau ye hei".truly,i never met frens like both of you.but fated,i guess.so,here am i,alone in this hostorical city.need to relax now or else my hormon will be inbalance(according to doctor)

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