Goodbye 2018 hello 2019

It has been more than a year I didn’t blog . A lot of events happened and I didn’t have the time to pen it down here. 2018 has been great but as usual , there are ups and downs . It wasnt a easy year for me as I finally got pregnant again last year after the miscarriage . It was unexpected and it wasn’t easy my pregnancy journey . I can’t travel much thus I didn’t even go back hometown this year for cny . Have to take care of my food intake and everyday I have to record my bp . Second trimester I have to poke my own finger to measure glucose. I feel scared and worried almost everyday counting the kicks and negative thoughts start to conquer my mind . Luckily I have frens that comfort me . It wasn’t easy . What is easy for others but it might be something I can’t even achieve /control . I was scared when the gynae told me my placenta shows sign of aging . C sec was the safest method and I went through it . The pain after that was hard as due to I have high Bp , I can’t take pain killers. I finally made it. Really thankful for what god has given me . I have lost one but god has given me another chance . Took 4 months maternity leave and finally back to work . Yea , u might think everything works well, I thought so as well but it didn’t . There was some annoying new fella from cs complain to my boss and it was performance time . Shitty fella. Haih , just need to think positive and couldn’t bother less on this kind of people. Christmas was great with the nice food I had at Sheraton Pj . Hope that 2019 will be better than 2018 . Cheers to a new year 2019 ..!!!