Advice most needed is least heeded

Well, it has been more than a year my beloved daddy left us without even say goodbye.Although I have always told myself, it is time to move on but each time I think of him, tears will definitely falling from my cheeks.Up till today, I still havent let go, to accept the fact he has gone. I keep asking myself,what actually happen?The memories keep falling down my head , its like flashing some old movies using some old junk equipment in the cinema. In the so called film movie on my head, I recalled how fast it happens, how much I have cried in the funeral parlour, the look at the motionless body in the mortuary, the stitches in his body, and how his body disappear from my sight in the cremation hall.It was a very painful memory, and sometimes, I wonder how my mum actually go through it. A person who u know more than 30 years, sleeping on the side of your bed for the last 30 years suddenly gone. I must admit, my mum is a tough lady.I didnt see her cry much in the funeral but deep down, I know, it hurts her more (probably ten times more than what I felt). The sad eyes on her face on that frightful night, I recalled.Without daddy, I have to do every thing on my own, I thank god for giving me a lovely hubby on my side. Positive thinking, I still have family. My younger sis has always been quiet,I bet she miss daddy too. He was her buddy, her best friend.She learn the lesson the hard way but I am glad she has changed. Changed for better. Her studies so far is good with getting into Dean List. Daddy will be so proud of her. After Dad's incident, I realized, yes, money is important but we should do what we want to do cos life is really short. Live like there is no tomorrow. Although my daddy has become a past, we still need to look into the future. Celebrate mother's day in mum's new apartment with the Rachel and Wai Lik. Mum already retired and I believe she deserve to have a peaceful, happy life . Till then, adios!