2013: First half of the year, feeling great...

Wow, five months, I didnt update my blog. Well, just to share on some update.Recently, I bought a house at Bukit Katil, Melaka. Very happy about it due to the fact, property price is rising tremendously. Looking back the things I had, I realised that I achieve my target. Before 30, I already married, own property, car,hmm...whats next? change car?nah, my car is still in good condition and cars are liabilites. Yea, a lot of people keep asking the same question.when are u having kids? Well, not now. I still want to see the world. Having kids means tying down(can see my neighbour lifestyle-everyday sit at home. omg) I want to spend some quiet time going holiday with my hubby while we can. My mum keep asking me to work hard on the baby issue. Very pressure on this topic. Changing job makes me consider on this kid issue. I need to impressed my boss. Getting pregnant means low productivity(with the morning sickness). Its not that I dont want to have kids but kids plan to be phostphoned(when i am ready).Yea,you might said,by the time u want, cant get it loh due to age factor. Nah, if fated, will have onelah. Let it naturally. Father's Day which falls last weekend, it bring back a lot of memories of my late daddy. It has been one year. Things has been same from the outside but the truth is, things are never same again. I miss his jokes, his smile, his laughter, his loud voice..etc In the early stage, when I go downstairs of my ipoh house on Sunday, tears start flowing down my cheeks non stop.I got so used to my daddy calling me in the morning to wake me up and he will be downstairs , either in the toilet or reading newspaper. The fact that he was gone was difficult to digest when it happens too sudden. As time passes, I no longer cried when I back to Ipoh as I knew I need to stay strong for my mum. It wasnt easy as I notice some mild depression symptom in my mum. I tried to be considerate and tolerate with her. Many times, I lost control and ended up quarrelling with her (i hate the fact my dad is not here and I have to do things on my own and his task) I feel tired at times but I told myself, I need to hang on. There is no one else to help but me and its only me. It wasnt easy dealing with my mum tantrums, my younger sis . When a person gone, things doesnt pause/stop there. There are credit cards(debts) to settle, insurance, socso, lawyers. i have to deal with this and along the way, my younger sis couldnt take it and I have to tolerate with her behaviour. After one year, 80% involving things on my daddy is done.All of us have move on(particularly my elder sis). We miss him and we know he always in our hearts. Its time to look at the future, things we want to do. I myself, what I want is my mum to move on with life,i want her to be happy. Retired and move here so that I can take good care of her. On my career, confirmation of my position is already done. Yay! Things are great in my new company. No stress, learn new things everyday. I love my job!