Feb 2010

Yup, it has been a long time din update my blog. Those lazy worms start to attacking me already. I wonder sometimes what happen to my body as it seems that I always feel tired and restless till the extend I even woke up late this morning. There is something that is bothering my mind this whole week. Mood has been bad lately and I cant stop complaining this and that. This is not the way it is suppose to be but I just cant help it.Even treat my own boss in a very extreme harsh way. I am trying very hard to tell myself , relax, dun bother so much, dun care but I think I have failed to do. Seriously, I fail. I admit that. Notice ever since from uni days till now, there is always problem, challenges,one after another. Ask me on my happy moments, I do have, of course but due to my negative thinking now, the bad things has overshadow the good things.Yes, am looking forward to CNY but somehow the feeling is a bit different compare to the younger days of me. Yes, i dont like the feeling of growing up and getting older but no choice...My family has always been my first priorities especially my parents but my younger sis has always been the trouble creator and wonder when she will grow up.Keep telling myself that she is still young but each time I go back, her attitude really testing my patience.Well, to comfort myself, probably the year of ox is the year of "fan tai sui" is not over yet. There are so many things bothering my mind including my niece has the issue of "unable to speak" which kinda serious. Although she is not my kid, but I still worry. Yes, I keep worrying this and that.Bet thats the reason for the number of white hair I have right now. I cant stop worrying especially on those I love. When will I learn to put things behind and dont care so much? Am i asking too much and have high expectations?