cant believe i actually din blog here for more than 2 months.well,been busy lately and kind of lazy to blog also.well,my training presentation was kind of screwed up.well,do not want to talk about it further as the chapter is closed.fyp,no progress.i need to get my strength back to do my fyp,in the sense of mentality.physically,i have become fatter.good food in ipoh certainly helps me to gain weight.training was sucks but my colleagues were great.well,third sem already starts but until now,i wasnt ready to face the challenges yet.been thinking a lot lately till i do have a lot of white hair.oh yea,i did dye my hair to natural brown.not because wanna become stylish but just to cover up those bloody white hair.my ex colleagues been teasing me a lot about them as i tied up my hair during work time.oh yea,before i forgot ,i have NIECE!yup,u heard me right,i am now officially upgraded to the status "auntie".she is damn adorable except for the crying part.well,"auntie" is kind of lame or "ah yee" thus i prefer her to call me " auntie jo "hehe.she certainly brought a lot of joy to my parents.well,everyone's life has up and downs and i was kind of down past two weeks.i have cried a lot also but i know it doesnt help to solve the problem.was kind of glad it was over.been confused lately also.not sure what i want or which path to take in the future.during training,i have indeed seen a lot.the ugliness of people(not physically but it is their heart).sometimes i wonder am i becoming like those people yet someone told me it is different because i feel bad after i did something wrong and that the difference of me and them.i saw the greed human has,taking advantage and willing to do anything to get what u want and being over ambitious, 'kiasu' people.the working life there is horrible with stabbing back one another.thats reality and i should live with it.haih.i told myself many times to move on without "u" but there is still a light shadow of "u" inside my heart.my mind has take 90% in charge of my decision making already.i told myself it is ok and everything is fated.no point i keep on putting effort to get something i want.what belongs to u will come to u.just want to lead a simple and happy life now!
