the day my world collapse...will time heal my broken heart?

Been in and out of Columbia Hospital. Two weeks of worrying on bleeding issue and finally it happen. When it happens, I feel my world was collapse. I dont know what to do. I am scared. I ask myself, why? Why is God so cruel by giving me hope and take it away just like that? How am I going to face this again? I dont know. I cried and cried and before I knew it, I was in OT , waiting for the D&C procedure. The whole thing makes my body numb. How am I going to go on life without thinking about it? This is the second time I need to face miscarriage. How? God, please give me strength. Strength to move on and live happily and put the past behind me. Three days have passed but I still unable to forget. Each time I look at Teh, I feel sorry for him. We did our best but things doesnt turn out right . Life is so difficult, huh?