there are always things which i never understand.no matter how hard i try to understand.so many problems.so many things to think about.sometimes,i really feel tired .feel so lonely here.feel so lost.i dun know where am i,dun know where am i going,i just dun know.feel really down nowadays.i wish there was someone here with me,but unfortunely,there was no one,just me only standing at a crowd which never knew my existance.frens?yea,i do have frens here but sad to say,those were not my true frens.i realise they only come to me when they need my help.i dun mind that cos i did that sometimes,who dun have flaws?but some were really over the limit,i have this fren(not going to mention her name here) who has been so busy( i have no idea she is busy with what),i havent see her for 6 weeks.thats almost more than a month.each time,i have to send message to her ym.i am sick of doing that.she remind me one of my so called best fren.this fren of mine only come to me when she need me,and once,she ask me to go out to jj but she plan to meet me for 15 minutes.wtf,15 minutes??might as well,dun ask me out.when i go out with frens,i spend at least an hour not bloody 15 minutes.to me,they have no initiative to maintain a true friendship.so,why should i care such frens?to me,they are catogorized as hi bye frens.ok,i know you must think that i damn fussy ,bad,whatsoever.i dun want to live my life like a "pretender".i know life is like a stage but we dun have to act someone who are perfect to go on in life.they might look very successful from outside,but deep inside,only the god knows.i am not saying i am perfect,i have lots of weakness too but at least,i try my very best to be a true fren.haih,just dissapointed with this fren of mine.i really gave up,no point to care also.people might think i like naggin and "fan" only.no one will appreciate so i told myself,i come to mmu not to make my frens happy and be a clown,come here to get my degree.if you think i am a hermit ,freak,go ahead,i dun mind as long as i am not doing anything wrong that go agaiinst my belief.tired liao..nitez...