Year 2020 , thank god, I still manage to survive

It has been ages i guess. Been busy and have a fruitful year of 2019 and it is already year 2020. There are many things have happen last year, but i somehow manage to brace through it. I have been keep quiet about the birth of my daughter. Anyway, she is now already 2 years old. The love of my heart. This is her when she was still a baby. Because of her, I will make sure myself healthy, so that I can take good care of her always. Although we are now in lockdown and covid-19 has affected our daily life , i  choose to think positive and look at the brighter side. Feeling sleepy , thus adios.

Goodbye 2018 hello 2019

It has been more than a year I didn’t blog . A lot of events happened and I didn’t have the time to pen it down here. 2018 has been great but as usual , there are ups and downs . It wasnt a easy year for me as I finally got pregnant again last year after the miscarriage . It was unexpected and it wasn’t easy my pregnancy journey . I can’t travel much thus I didn’t even go back hometown this year for cny . Have to take care of my food intake and everyday I have to record my bp . Second trimester I have to poke my own finger to measure glucose. I feel scared and worried almost everyday counting the kicks and negative thoughts start to conquer my mind . Luckily I have frens that comfort me . It wasn’t easy . What is easy for others but it might be something I can’t even achieve /control . I was scared when the gynae told me my placenta shows sign of aging . C sec was the safest method and I went through it . The pain after that was hard as due to I have high Bp , I can’t take pain killers. I finally made it. Really thankful for what god has given me . I have lost one but god has given me another chance . Took 4 months maternity leave and finally back to work . Yea , u might think everything works well, I thought so as well but it didn’t . There was some annoying new fella from cs complain to my boss and it was performance time . Shitty fella. Haih , just need to think positive and couldn’t bother less on this kind of people. Christmas was great with the nice food I had at Sheraton Pj . Hope that 2019 will be better than 2018 . Cheers to a new year 2019 ..!!!

A look into the sweet memories and continue to smile and live happily

It took quite some time for me to be back up. Decided to put the past behind. Although last year , a few unfortunate event happen but one of the best memories of last year is my trip to Hong Kong. Yes, a trip to the land of TVB, and to fulfill my childhood dream which is to pay a visit to Disneyland. It is indeed a land of happiness. The fireworks at night was stunning and glad I decided to stay late just to watch the beautiful fireworks with Teh.

Due to I change job, I only manage to find time to go for a short vacation to Penang after I was confirmed in June. Met MMU bestie , Felicia and we spend time together going to 3D trick muzium.Soon another 4 months, it will be the end of year 2017. I dont ask for more, I just want a happy life, good health .

the day my world collapse...will time heal my broken heart?

Been in and out of Columbia Hospital. Two weeks of worrying on bleeding issue and finally it happen. When it happens, I feel my world was collapse. I dont know what to do. I am scared. I ask myself, why? Why is God so cruel by giving me hope and take it away just like that? How am I going to face this again? I dont know. I cried and cried and before I knew it, I was in OT , waiting for the D&C procedure. The whole thing makes my body numb. How am I going to go on life without thinking about it? This is the second time I need to face miscarriage. How? God, please give me strength. Strength to move on and live happily and put the past behind me. Three days have passed but I still unable to forget. Each time I look at Teh, I feel sorry for him. We did our best but things doesnt turn out right . Life is so difficult, huh?

Goodbye 2016, hello 2017...

Wow, din know I abandon my blog that long. Well, so far a few events happen in year 2016. It was again another year of series of unfortunate events.
I have broken my finger tendon causing it to fall down. It was scary. The doc advised me to immediately to be warded and schedule operation. At that time,
I feel my life has collapsed. I have to take leave from work for 6 weeks. My elder sis has been very supportive and Teh as well. I feel like crying but
I hold back my tears as I do not want my loved ones to be worried. The hardship I faced during the 6 weeks, not able to cook , wear bra and even having hard time
to feed myself. Outside people might think I have a relax,happy life staying at home for 6 weeks but I can tell you, that 6 weeks is one of the hardest
week I have to go through. I have to go physiotherapy minimum two times a week and each session, my life energy was like sucked out at that place.
I hardly sleep well at night due to bandages. I didnt even celebrate my birthday due to this. Just a simple meal , thats all.
Thinking everything was over after 6 weeks, one week after I start work, a trailer bang my car. Went to police station and car was sent to repair.
2016, I hate you. 2017, please be good to me.

Stay Strong

Been away for too long. Nothing much except work work work.Watching Korean drama,"Uncontrollably fond" and din know Kim Woo Bin has such charm on him that attract my attention. Was impressed with "W" drama storyline but I still prefer a melodrama. After a long consideration, I decided to go Hong Kong end of the year to see the land of TVB dramas. My Korea dream is still a long way. Shoulders felt heavy nowadays as the installment for Ultrapolis is increasing rapidly. My health has been deteriorating lately but I keep it away from my mum so that she wont worry too much. Occasionally, I will destress myself by online shopping. Life has been ok so far. My facebook is full of frens expecting showing their belly , or newborn babies. I have decided to filter this out from my newsfeed.It is not their fault, I know but it is just too much for me. I need to continue life. Sometimes , looking at my hubby is a pain. Occasionally, I cried at night.As human, we do feel sad but I believe as time comes, it will heal. The pain will go away and the thought will go away once we get used to it.

Penang trip(30 April till 2 May 2016)

Just back from Penang during the labour day hols. Finally went to St Anne church. Did my prayer to the god and we went straight to Island after lunch at BM. Went to Georgetown and with the help of Waze, we manage to find our hotel without any difficulty. Satisfied with the room and off we went to grab some snacks from the hawker stalls few shop away. It was very convenient, the only catch is the parking space very limited. Was tired so we nap about one hour inside the room.At 6 oclock, we started our journey to Kimberly Street. Why not going to Gurney Drive? We have been there many times thus we thought we want to have a change and hangout at the town. Food was not as much as Gurney but we tried all the recommended food there. Emperor chicken feet, the gingko soup with "yau cha kuai". After a satifying dinner, we went to Prangin Mall to do some light shopping. Nothing much, just bought some shoes there. As we were tired as travel all the way from KL, we went to bed quite early at 1130pm. The next day, it was time to go for Air Itam laksa. Kek Lok Si. This is a must visit place in Penang. Up we went, with the normal routine, grab some vege for the tortoise there and off up we went to do our prayers. My Muar Chi stall is at its usual spot,thus we grab two boxes of it from the uncle. It was labour day and sale must be everywhere. It was such a hot weather thus we decided to go to Queensbay Mall. Spending few hours there with joining the crowd at Padini,we went to Armenian street to enjoy the murals and photograph session.This time, I manage to get myself a bicycle to ride.Bought some handmade souveniers and  off we went to Macalister road to try the hawker food there. I saw an uncle selling durians and was very tempted but manage to control myself. I think this year, I need to have self control against this giant king of fruits.We order oysters and enjoy ourselves with our sweat running all over our face. Decided to go 1 st avenue to enjoy the cold air cond environment there. The next morning, we went to this super old shop Kedai Kopi Kong Thai Lai. The nasi lemak is cheap and taste fantastic. You know what is most popular at Penang? Yes, the cendol. We went to Penang road and q up for the cendol. My mum hate that environment as the weather was super hot. Just like a small kid, she throw tantrums and shouting and yelling at me when I told her I am going to Gurney Plaza to meet up with a fren. She was pestering me to go back to Ipoh also. I love my mum but sometimes her tantrums is not easy to handle. This is where my younger sis crazy genes who like to menggila comes from. I told myself to be patient and I cancel my meetup with fren. I notice it is not easy to go hols with my mum and younger sis , no wonder my elder sis never bring my mum/younger sis to hols anymore. She just go with her family.So far, no plans to go anywhere this year. Been saving money very hard. Liabilities too much and causing I cant afford a new car. My Korea trip need to be postphoned to next year again.

                                                    St Anne church at Bukit Mertajam

                                                    The half boiled egg from Kong Thai Lai

                                             Char Keuy Teow near Eton hotel (rm9.50) one plate

                                                 My purple bicycle at Armenian Street